(deep sigh) It's often easy to feel like the best to ever do it and unestablished simultaneously as a young creative. The lack of balance can really leave you feeling hopeless. Super busy or inspired one day then uninspired and flat the next four. Meeting deadlines for external projects and killing them and then being unable to carry out your own. Liking all your homies work on Insta and feeling the pressure to produce the same level of work. Making some really cool work and getting chocked by imposter syndrome minutes later. It is going to take time to get used to this. It is going to take time to do without second-guessing yourself. It is going to take time to feel worthy. It is going take time to be where you want to be. Image by me Edit by me May 2019
Floating Reverie's //2WEEKS Residency HEY MTV!! WELCOME TO MY CRIB Hey MTV, thanks for coming to my crib. It's been great sharing. I hope you enjoyed being in my space and hearing my stories about space. Hope you're glad you got to travel with me because not everyone gets the chance to experience 14 days in my life and in my cribs. You're welcome. Spotted: Me in front of my home.
Floating Reverie's //2WEEKS Residency HEY MTV!! WELCOME TO MY CRIB Finding the perfect backdrop or view. I always find it interesting when people talk about property. Where I live there is a township called Mayibuye in the distance. You can see it and very clearly. You can't hide or ignore it, I think its growing. Always interesting how my neighbor would take images and try to find ways to crop it out. It disrupts the image and the idea of peace. I see Mayibuye, I always see Mayibuye.
Floating Reverie's //2WEEKS Residency HEY MTV!! WELCOME TO MY CRIB Teletubbies was THAT show when I was a toddler. A world I couldn't understand but wanted to be in. My first yearning to experience a world I could not instantly access. I wanted to be the fifth character, I wanted to eat that pancake waffle ting. Slurp that custard. Play with the scooter and huge ball. Watch the vacuum cleaner do its thing. Be the laughing sun baby. Tumble on the hill and experience their headquarters. I finally took a trip to the land of my homies.
Floating Reverie's //2WEEKS Residency HEY MTV!! WELCOME TO MY CRIB It's okay if you have a messy desktop. I have one most of the time. I understand it and know where everything stays. My desktop is my digital brain or maybe the library in my brain. Some folders are titled "ncnvbnbavsbvdanbavNAVBVNABDMNBDNSJDNNVBsmbmnMNhvbdvbns" and that is fine because I understand and that file is just as important as the file titled "the future".
Floating Reverie's //2WEEKS Residency HEY MTV!! WELCOME TO MY CRIB Have you ever started a route which is navigated and narrated by a GPS? Everything seems to be going well and all of a sudden all it does is recalculate. You find yourself on a road which has no landmarks and its definitely not the place you requested (even though you've never been there and don't know how it looks). Well, I find myself here. Recalculating and rerouting. Destination unknown but apparently I have arrived.
Floating Reverie's //2WEEKS Residency HEY MTV!! WELCOME TO MY CRIB I live inside myself. Deep inside. The layers and layers of me are my friends and my home. I find peace and comfort in the core of me. I search inside first. I wake up in my head and in my heart. I feel sad in my chest. Happy in my feet and in my hands. Curious in my belly. Strength in my core. I live and exist in here. I am her and her and her and her and her and her.